It's all about fun for me...

Meaning that I refuse to take life so seriously.  Probably the reason why I'm in such dire straits right now.  I guess if it's fun that you constantly think of,  you're probably neglecting responsibility.  An admission on my part.  I tend to neglect responsibility.  It's hard to be responsible when you don't have the way or means of putting these so called responsibilities in their proper place.  That's where balance comes into place and 'Balance' is another subject that will be discussed later.

I've had more than my share of fun.  That list of concerts is a condensed one so far and that list will probably reach a hundred plus.  It was my way of having fun.  The money spent, the beers drank and in my younger days, all that stupid drug taking.  Pot mostly but my first concert at 16, there were things taken that I really don't want to mention.  My tenure in the U.S. Navy was all about fun.  They bust your ass with duties and your time off is spent outside the gates doing God knows what.  What would you do after a 24 hour shift and 24 hours off and stationed in Rota, Spain.  An unbelievable playground, wouldn't you say.  And that wasn't the only place I was stationed at.  Sicily was unbelievable.  After the Navy I think I adopted the philosophy of playing harder than I worked.  And that's where it all began.

It was a ten year stretch of floundering through life trying to take advantage of life.  Looking for that 'crystal ship' to come ashore and seeing if the golden hand of life was going to reach down and pick me.  Kind of like thinking that YOU were going to win a lottery and life would be the way you wanted it to be.  What a joke!!!!  Jeez, I was young and naive.  We all wish we could turn back the clock and change things but when your past is full of irresponsible actions, that notion of turning back the clock really messes with your mind.  I worked....didn't work...work.....didn't work, all because having fun was more important then anything.  Ambition was put on the back burner.  The sad thing is that eventually I realized that ambition is so key in determining what the rest of your life is going to be.  Focus and balance and determination and a plan to achieve what your purpose in life is what the order of business is when you're young.  Sure, things happen along journey and yes, your life may take a sudden turn but with that same plan you will overcome.

Self psycho-analysis is what this is turning out to be and my apologies to the audience.  This is suppose to be fun.  There you go....another reference to the word fun.  I just can't get away from that.